Hey  everybody, I'm super bored at home and at the same time I'm extremely exhausted. I've been working and it's absolutely tiring and hectic. Time is what matters most in this line of work. That's what I realised. I got screwed up by this parent yesterday, I tolerated my anger so much that I apologised 7 times! Yet I got yelled at. Oh well, that's what comes with the job and I need the money anyway.

    
WAWAN, VEGA AND ME!

 
VEGA AND I, FOREVER ALWAYS(:

ON THE TRAM TO SILOSO BEACH



THAT'S MY LEG! HAHAHA. CREDITS TO FIR! (: LOVE YOUR PHOTOGRAPHY.




Hey all. Really tired today but today's update's gonna be super long, brace yourselves.

I went over to MCYS and they made me stay with my dad and refused to allow me to stay with Vega or alone at Queenstown. They even made me sign some annoying document. The moment I woke up to go to MCYS I told myself no matter what the outcome is, I got to go to church for praise because I knew it might probably the last time I see all my church friends. And I've been meaning to go for praise at least but I've been supporting myself so I've been working long hours and my office is so far away from church.

When I got to church, it was raining, just when my day couldn't get any worse. Then I saw Michael Lee and Dennis eating their Mega Macs! Then we were talking. I went alone with Michael Lee to talk for awhile. Finally, Ivan Brandon Bonaventure Reddy came! Then he brought a jacket for me, thank goodness he remembered. Went for praise. Then after praise, waited for Ivan to pick me up cause we had some other appointment in which I shan't mention here. Then when I got home, I cried myself to sleep. Couldn't bear the thought that it was probably the last night I'd see my church friends.

Right now, I'm working at East Point, mascot thingy. Had Oreo Cheesecake yesterday! But somehow it wasn't really complete because I always ate that with either Vega or Dezi or both! Oh well, things have really changed.

Anyway, went to Sentosa recently! With Syafiq, Vega, Wawan and Fir! I've got uploaded pictures! Had so much fun that day. Credits to Fir for the pictures but its only half of all the photos we took due to Fir's laziness!!!!!!! Haha.

I got to go now, have to be at work early tomorrow. (:

Hey all, finally I've got the mood and the chance to update! My apologies for not updating for so long, my internet is down, well it has been for quite some time now which almost feels like years to me but oh well.

Anyways, life has been real screwed up for me recently. Dad as usual being an asshole and I do not want to even start with my stupid mother. Sometimes I wish I was just never brought into this world because all these two people give me is anger, hatred and sheer annoyance. I'm sure those real close to me should know what I'm talking about.

Well, right now my siblings are with my father in Hong Kong and I'm stuck alone at home ( don't ask where my mother is!). I sort of conquered my fear of being alone at home and I'm proud of it! I finally conquered that stupid fear of mine which has been a real great big burden for me. Now since that load is off, I've got more important things to think about and to solve.

Right now, I've got so many things to solve and so little time. Thank goodness today was the last GCE O Level paper! Now I can concentrate on my other annoying problems. I'm even starting to miss my siblings and this is the very first time I've ever missed the rock bottoms my brother gave me every morning to just wake me up and my sister's weird experiments with fruit juices but of course I miss all our wrestling matches. They're coming back on Thursday and I'll be busy because the very next day is my stupid graduation night which would be the freaking worst day of any prom experience I've had or I ever will have because Sockface is sitting at the same freakingf table as me! Oh th3e horror! Oh the AGONY!!!!

Oh and before I go off now.. I got to shout out to several people! Especially those real close! (:

#1 VEGA

The reason we're having a 5 year long friendship was all because of the class we got into in the beginning of our secondary school life. I thank god that it happened because I guess I might probably end up just like Sockface but maybe a darker version with my old hairstyle, trust me I really thank goodness that I didn't end up like that. We have a bond no matter how far we may be, we're always close and we can never drift and even if we do, we always come back to each other, somehow. I'd like to thank you for all those joys and for seeing me through those hard times throughout the 5 years we've been together. I really appreciate you being there for me alot and I know you'd always be there for me and that our friendship would continue to grow even stronger and last way way way longer. (: i love you :D


#2 DELS

Heyy sugarr. HAHA! Well, though we've never been close for long, it feels as though I've known you for a long time, well technically I did but you know what I mean. I appreciate you being there for me all the time and backing me up whenever and where ever. And I especially enjoy our long and sometimes retardedly funny talks at the riverside of Esplanade. Many memories were made there with you and I'm sure we'd make alot more of memories there, knowing you.Thanks for everything. I love you(:

#3 SYAFIQ

Happy birthday again although it was yesterday. Haha. I've known you for  4 years! Somehow it seems so short but you always know what to say to help me whenever I have problems. Thanks for everything dude! Stay tweenie always! hahaha (:

#4 JOEL

Thanks for everything dude. i tell you literally everything and you're like my memory card, forever remembering everything for me since my memory sucks, I bet you know that right. Haha. Anyways, you've been there for me through thick and thin and I appreciate that alot. Though sometimes you never listen to me, but oh well. :D

BYEE!!!(:

Hey all! Well, Racial Harmony Day was ok. Sockface, as per usual looked hideous. Ok, maybe that's a biased opinion cause I just can't stand Sockface but oh well(:  Haha. Anyways, after school went off to watch THE DARK KNIGHT! (its The Black Knight to Jingles!) Haha! The show is super nice and I swear I want to watch it over again! "Why sooo serious?!" HAHAHA. As you can see I simply enjoyed the movie. After that Vega and I went off to Toa Payoh Park and chatted then soon made our way to the Cheers bus stop to take bus home and then I got home and I've been on the computer ever since. Well, That excludes the several hours I was lying on the couch reading a book I bought. Yes, I bought a book. And YES!, I did read and I am reading a book. I know, rather surprising when it comes to me. Oh well. I'm off to continuing my reading, the book is simply addictive! I just can't stop reading. (:




Jingles and myself (: First time I've taken an okay looking photo with glasses! Surprisingly, I look rather fair.Hmmm.. Just got to be the lighting in the toilet in school. (:

Hey! I'm back again! Well, here's the update!

FRIDAY!!!

Went to school and it was like super slack as per usual then I had to stay back for stupid afternoon study and guess what the subject was...ENGLISH!! And yes, Ms Wendy Priscilla Wong came and she did a spot check. Being her slow self she was not able to confiscate my phone because I was simply too swift and fast for her. HAHA. Anyway I rushed home to go get ready. Got home. Got ready. Then I left the house and went on over to Pasir Ris MRT Station! Met Idayu there and we head on off to Downtown East and then bought some stuff at Cheers and finally headed to the lovely and fantabulous BBQ pit in which my homies were there waiting for me! HAHA (yea right). And if you're wondering why the BBQ was for. Well, its for Azri's birthday! A supposed to be surprise for him by Jingles. Vega and Apek came after awhile and then left. Soon, we met up with Radyn and Mimi at Downtown East and went off to Alvin's place to crash! Had loads of fun. 

HIGHLIGHT FOR THAT DAY!

Well let me begin by saying that the below contents were all because of the master mind, Alvin! He's the cause of all the trauma and laughter and laughter and utter insanity that might have happened after what he did.

Mimi logged on to her MSN Messenger account and found out that some random guy just started chatting with her and she had no idea who. So our dear master mind comes in and pretends to be Stacey aka Mimi (because she claims herself to be Stacey). Anyway, Alvin got him to show how he looked like by him using the webcam. His face was super straight and his eyeballs couldn't stop moving. I swear his body didn't move an inch only his eyeballs. From right to left and all! So annoying!!! Anyway!!! Then Alvin tries getting this guy's number because this guy (by the way his name is SHAN!) wants to have phone sex. So fine he finally gives the number. We call him up and then Mimi talks to him! He even wanted to meet the next day for sex at 10.30pm, Block 53 at Chye Chee I think? After awhile they went back chatting and then Alvin asks him to show his dick. This is how the whole thing happened, orderly!

1) He faces his webcam to his pants
2) Spreads his legs wide open
3) Strokes his dick
4) Says he's shy.. Alvin persists and told him to just show.
5) Takes off his pants
6) Says he's shy..again..Alvin persists yet again...
7) Shows his dick!!!!

And that was after about one and a half hours of talking (3am to 4.30pm) roughly! Of course, the girls didn't want to see it so went away from the computer! The guys saw and were laughing so loud that I felt that I was going to go deaf! Then we call this guy again.. 

Mimi: Hey
Guy(Shan): Hey
ALVIN! : EH THIS IS STACEY YOU REALLY WANNA FUCK ME TOMORROW AH?

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!

He hangs up.

Well its kind of late right now and I just have to pour everything out before I just break down and I don't want to cry. I'm tired of crying. It just makes the pain even more unbearable. Yes, I know I never show my true feelings and always cover it up with this super annoying and happy aka usual Dawn but somehow I do that only because I feel that its better that way. Its like you want to talk about it to somebody but at the same time you don't because you know by pouring it all out to somebody either its going to hurt a lot more or not only is it going to hurt a lot more, the person would feel bad cause he/she feels so helpless cause he/she can't or don't know how to help. 

This is all basically because of him. Every ounce of pain I feel is because of him. Yet he will never know neither would he ever understand why it is so. I don't blame him. I mean like, I did screw everything up with him and if I had the power to turn back time to undo all the wrongs I've done, I definitely would without hesititating for a second. But then again that's one of the reason God never gave me such a power cause he knew I'd misuse it and take advantage of it. I want all this pain to stop. I don't want to feel it anymore. I'm all worn out from suffering with all this for God knows how long and I'm tired. I want it to stop but when would it ever stop and leave me alone for good? When will i ever get my fucking ass off this shit I'm in and start moving on or even start forgetting or at least TRY to?! 

To add to all this annoyance in my life, here comes the bomb of my life. Pauline Fuckany ( or so my sister calls her). Yes, its my annoying mother. I never slept for a single minute last night all because of her. I don't have peace of mind, I can't concentrate on my studies, I sleep in class, I get angry even easier, I shout at the world, I get violent and etc etc etc is all because of that one annoying little 51 year old 'dalmation'. I really need to migrate to another planet, I swear!